So I ran (and finished) my first half marathon this past Sunday and I'm happy to say I survived. I did much better than I expected or hoped for, I finished in just under 2hrs 13mins for an average of 10:09 min/mile. My main goal was to finish and hopefully be at or around 2hrs 20mins so I'm pretty excited that I was able to finish under. my target. Now that being said I wasn't even close to finishing in the top of my age group let alone top half of the race but I'm pretty sure for the group of "People who weighed 300lbs last year and were a lot closer to death than any 32 year old should be" I may have won. Honestly the fact that I even believed I could run this race proves I won that small victory as well as the larger battle of regaining my life.
It has been a slow process this last year, losing 75lbs pounds and I'm not done yet. I would like to lose another 25-30lbs and I know they will probably be more difficult then the previous 75. It took running that race for me to really appreciate and comprehend what I have done and how far I've come, and not just physically but emotionally, spiritually and mentality as well. I hadn't even realized how depressed I was before and how unhappy I was with who I had become. Working out, training mma and running not only gave me a way to lose weight but it gave me the tools to change other avenues of my life I wasn't happy with as well. It literally took me hitting rock bottom physically to finally decide to make a change and I'm lucky I did. Now I can be more active with my boys and have more energy during the day so I'm not as crabby and tired when I'm home. I hope I can be the example my boys deserve so they can lead a life of healthy activity, they certainly are active enough now, just spend a couple hours with them and you'll be wiped out. I remember being a kid and looking up to my dad and the things he could do physically and athletically and was just in awe of him, I hope someday my kids can look up to me that same way. I'll never be a world champion in mma or win the Boston Marathon and I really have no desire for those things, but if I can be a champion in my little boys eyes it will be just as good.
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